So, I’m a graduating high school student and I took some college entrance exams…
And I was one of the hopefuls for being a UST Student and my hopes were crushed right in the core… I did not qualify… I did not qualify…. I did not qualify, it keeps ringing in my head.. I failed the maths, the effing maths, the maths that I tried so hard on, all for nothing. *sigh*
But I guess I’ll just have to move on and accept it for what it is, I passed english, IQ, science.. so, all should be well, at least I know that I have to improve my math skills… and I’m taking up engineering, so yeah… I’ll be stuck with math, damned little devil.
I’m devastated at the moment, and I’m all over the place, I’m a complete mess.. emotion-wise and I don’t know, I want to cry, but I can’t. It’s like something’s blocking my tears.
And now, I’m also having second thoughts with my college program, I want to take up the arts, but I also want to get money (like everyone) and I’m just, I can’t, I don’t know….
I’m unsure and lost and disgruntled and scared. I just don’t know what to feel at the moment. Emotions banging all over my heart and head. But, there’s always hope they say… and I saw this cute slogan on the internet right after seeing the result of my exam it went “Don’t worry, I can handle this.-God” it wasn’t exactly like that, but it’s somewhere around it. And I must say, I guess, there’s God who will be making the way for me, now I just have to do my best…. but my best apparently wasn’t good enough for that exam *weep**weep*
I’m lost. But all will be well, one way or another…. I hope by the time I wake up, things will be better, and I’ll look back at this and be thankful that I was able to feel the emotions that I had.
Faded memories and torn tracks
From where do we get back here?
I don’t know where to go now
Should I just sit still?
That came outta nowhere. XDD
But you know, with all the things we go through there’s still a lot of things to be thankful for.
A LOT. So, I just have to keep moving on… we all have to. Change is the only thing constant in our lives, it will bring upon good and bad, but it’s what makes up life…..
I don’t know man, what was that all about?!
sigh, sigh, fly~~